Do It For The Plot

Hey, lovies!

OMG… how I’ve missed you, my loves.

To say the last 6–9 months have been a whirlwind would honestly be the most disrespectful, watered-down description of a lifetime. And y’all know I’m entirely too dramatic for that. But I’m also somewhere between honoring the code of conduct reg. 111 “we don’t give camera time to members of the Creep Squad” because why interrupt their dullness with any of our shine? We don’t let whack shit make us sweat.

But if I’m being completely honest…the past few months definitely had a girlie pop glistening a little bit.

For now, the only context I can really give is this… imagine you’re on an extended season of Love Island season 7 mixed with The Devil Wears Prada, The Traitors, and peak 2010s Real Housewives of Atlanta back when Nene was helping the girls find a home and sleepovers ended in riots.

Yeah…That loosely paints the picture of what I’ve been surviving through. Which I hope explains why I’ve been MIA and too busy to sit down and chit-chat with my honeys.

The wildest part?

For over 80% of it, I had absolutely no idea I’d even been cast in a crossover reality show until I was already in the fight of my life. Thankfully, once I realized the game had actually started two quarters ago… your girl adjusted and we played ball. But many of you already know how well I can do that when I want to. 😉

However, I will admit that I can be a little naive annnndddd I also have a bad habit of second-guessing my intuition. This experience finally taught me to trust both my instincts and the woo-woo downloads God sends me.

Y’all… I literally had a dream this past fall that I was standing in a garden full of snakes before everything started spiraling.

And what did I do?

Continued to live, laugh, love.

But honestly… I kind of love that about myself. Life can be incredibly hard. Actually, more than “sometimes,” but we’ll save that conversation for another day. Even though our instinct is to adapt and survive, I never want life to harden me because I’ve accumulated too many difficult days. I want to stay hopeful. I want to keep looking for the good before I look for the bad. BUT! This has changed me in ways I’m thankful for and proud of. I’m done minimizing the gifts God has given me just because they don’t always make logical sense immediately or might cause me unwanted strife with others.

I don’t need logic to validate my sixth sense anymore and I’ve also accepted what our aunties always tell us. The jealously and hate is coming regardless. Better to acknowledge and account for it up front than on the back end. Period.

I’m still choosing to stay open-hearted though, even if that occasionally makes me look like an easy target to the Slim Shadys of the world. Because sometimes, trying so hard to keep the wrong people out also keeps the right people from ever getting in. God has always worked it out for me. He’s always protected me. So I’m gonna keep leaving that job to Him.

Now… since we’re being vulnerable and trust me, this part feels like nails on a chalkboard to admit but I definitely spiraled a little. Not a full crash out… An almost crash-out flair up , if you will. But I didn’t actually crash like I could have, so I expect trophies, thank you very much.

I do owe a little apology for the things I dropped while I was trying to keep all the plates spinning. Truthfully, I think I disappointed myself more than anyone else. My routines disappeared. My balance disappeared. Ironically, the very things that would’ve kept me grounded were the first things to fall away. And because of that, I probably wasn’t always the same quality of friend or level headed person people are used to getting from me.

Life ebbs and flows. I’m incredibly grateful for the people who loved me through that season. And to the people who couldn’t… No hard feelings. We all get to decide what seasons we’re willing to walk through with other people. That’s life.

But enough about that. The girlies are officially back. We’re regulating our nervous systems. We’re girl-bossing. We’re glam-ing. And we’re officially back to Doing It For The Plot…The plots we choose. (Because I think I need to start being WAAAAYYY more specific when I say that. No more involuntary side plots.!!)

So… Tap back in. Let’s catch up. We have so much to talk about.

Maybe one day I’ll tell you some of the absolutely insane stories from this past season in a “One Time When…” series…Or maybe I’ll save them for the cameras if we ever film that pod. (My Roman Empire… I know I know)

Either way… Trust me. You don’t want to miss what’s coming. Soooooo make sure you’re subscribed with your updated email, because the plot is officially plotting again!!!

And this time…

I’m writing the script. 💋